Sunday, September 27, 2009

About Me

Today is my twenty second birthday and I am currently on vacation at the beach. In honor of my birthday I am breaking some of my original statements about being anonymous.

My name is Alexander. In real life I go by Alex, but I can't stand to see "Alex" in print. I always sign my full name and it was just a coincidence that I started using "Xander" online. I'm quite use to it now and like it a lot better.

I am a white male, I'm about fifty pounds overweight, actively dieting, and 5'11". I'm a "picky" eater, but what I do like, I like the most expensive, gourmet brand possible. For the most part I live on turkey sandwiches (yes, there is an expensive gourmet brand of deli turkey).

I am a moderate conservative. I completely disagree with the Democrats agenda, and I won't associate with the "Grand Old Party", they are not "Grand" nor are they the "Old Party".

I have a slight New York accent, even though I only visited a couple times. I went to school in southwestern Virginia and became disgusted with the accent I was starting to get so I actively changed my accent. It really comes out when I argue with people.

I live on sarcasm. I don't mean at least half of the things I say literately. I also try to take thing to the next level of odd to see if it can become funnier. This has gotten me in trouble occasionally, I don't mind that much as I consider them to be idiots if they can't take a joke.

My favorite humor is schadenfreude. I actively laugh at others misery, but I've always hated when it happens to me.

I love metaphors, but once again people don't get them. Maybe if it was a movie they could rewatch they could but they never try in real life.

All of my grandparents are dead. Two died when I was very young, the others more recently. I truly wish I could have known the ones who died when I was little, I hear many great stories about them and even more so, how my remaining grandparents changed after their spouses passed away. My friends, whom I did not have many, would tell me that they were glad that their grandparents were not in as bad shape as mine were. I couldn't be upset when they died. It was a relief for me and for the entire family waiting for the time to come.

I do not know what happens after death, but I do not believe it could be worse than anything we endure during life and I refuse to fear it.

I dislike my body.

As I said before, I'm about fifty pounds overweight. I hate looking at myself in the mirror. As long as I don't I forget what I really look like. In my mind I'm some type of perfect weight where my clothes fit perfectly and I don't have to be self conscience. I haven't been that thin since I was twelve.

I will be a clothes horse once I loose my weight. I love clothes. I wish men were allow and/or expected to dress up more often, hell, I already look great when I dress up. That said, I will really be happy when I can wear horizontal stripes, which is possibly a year away for me right now.

Twenty-two years and counting

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Broken Schedule

So my sleep schedule is somewhat broken again. Better than it was at my apartment but still sucky.

I really tired too. Either I'm sick or I have cabin fever. I want to go play and have fun but I have no where to go.

Not counting the beach next week. Which reminds me that I need to pack. Bringing lot of games, movies, a book or two. And art supplies, just in case I get the urge.

Should be a fun week in the middle of nowhere.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Writing a book

So I almost never complete anything without outside motivation.

Projects, dull video games, writing, drawing. I can't do them without completing with someone (whether or not they realize we are) or a deadline, and with the deadline I tend to wait till the last minute. Lucky for me in college I would artificially pull up the deadline, either on purpose or accident.

Even this blog, I'm completing with the Google Analytics benchmark.

So the fact that I'm trying to write a book is amazing. I also think it shows how much time I have on my hands.

Now remember I have no formal training in writing novels, in fact my elementary school said that I would never be good at writing (also they said that I would never would learn to spell, which is only true on my keyboard)

So my adventure continues...

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

keeping busy

AImage by ~jjjohn~ via Flickr
I am preparing to go on vacation. I know, unemployed people shouldn't get vacations, but my parents are paying for it. I am cleaning out some of my old stuff, condensing down the boxes I brought from school. Hopefully, I'll find shit to sell on eBay and continue to resist the urge to buy stuff.

The date for a couple of my job applications has closed and I'm expecting to at least hear something from them. Still, I look now trying different keywords and different free sites.

Meanwhile, I'm writing in my other blog Illuminated University. My writing for it has been so so because I keep doing it around midnight, but I will edit old posts if necessary.

Speaking of which, I have another post to write.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Yeah, I did it

I started a new blog to put my random writings on.

Visit the University and discover a new world of magic and mystery.

My first post was a little lackluster, but I'm trying to create an entire world and I stumble whenever I have to come up with another name.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Another one?

I mentioned yesterday that I have been writing. I was doing a lot of background work on it this world I half created years ago, flushing it out as I haven't really thought about it recently.

Then it occurred to me that it's a great deal more interesting what I am writing for a story that will probably never be finished then what I usually write for this blog. I could easily create another blog dedicated to that world defining places and things in it and maybe I could stay interested in the story I am writing.

I'm checking urls. See if there is one I like. A lot of good ones were taken by losers who only posted once.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

A Good Day

Today I woke up at a reasonable time. I did not eat too much. I exercised. I left the house once. I baked cookies. I watched a decent movie (City of Ember) I had never seen before. I wrote about characters I created three years ago, expanded their personalities and histories and may, just may actually write a story involving them.

Bad news, my eBay listings that I put with free shipping all cost more in shipping than I earned in the first place, but now I am more comfortable in the process. Now I just need to start raiding my boxes for shit to sell.

Still no signs of employment, but for some reason my hopes are very high right now.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Wasted Time

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So my last couple of posts have been a bit sub par. No real point to them. That might jive if I was some type of celebrity, but I'm not so I really need to add some type of content to this blog dealie.

Well, the last week or so I started watching ad nauseum. I caught up on several shows I hadn't been watching and now it set up to notify me of new episodes, or if one of the actors sneezes. Really makes it a lot easier to get hooked on shows, such as Eureka, Warehouse 13, Bones, and Leverage.

Actually I should point out that they send you to the TNT site for the episodes of Leverage which sucks because that site really isn't set up for it.

Did I mention that they have the first three seasons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer on there too?

Yeah, this is why I don't have a job.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Me and my beloved wrist

Ligaments of wrist. Posterior view.Image via Wikipedia
My wrist hurts again.

I really wish that I had health insurance and could go to a doctor to have it checked out, but no job, no doctor. This doesn't mean I want the current healthcare bill to pass, it won't go into effect for years and if I still don't have a job by then, well, I'll have bigger problems.

Since I'm talking about myself, I suppose I should mention that I haven't really lost any weight recently, but I starting to take it seriously again, so I hope to make progress over the next couple of weeks. Heading to the beach in a couple of weeks so I doubt dieting will be the main topic of interest then.

I'm surprisingly tired tonight, might possibly be sick. Weee!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Now with less Whine... or not...

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I feel a little better about myself today. Not that I actually did anything, which may be related to not being able to get to sleep until 4:30 AM.

I really should be cleaning my room up. It's exercise and I may allow me to perform actual exercises in my room, but instead I'm trying to beat more amusement out of the dead horse know as the internet. The internet is so big that I really doubt that I could beat it completely to death.

I want to draw, but I have nothing to draw. I want to play Dungeons and Dragons, but have no one to play with. I'm bored and want out of the house but I have nowhere to go.

So I blog about it.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Waiting: Good Idea or Bad Idea

A week or so ago I applied for several jobs. They are very much the type of jobs I am looking for, ones that I qualify for and understand what the responsibilities are.

I'm waiting to hear back from them. They are academic jobs, which have a certain deadline so for at least one of them I can't expect to hear from them until after September 11th, I'd guess the week after sometime, if they chose to contact me.

So now I'm debating whether or not to look for other jobs while I wait. Logic says I should, but it is so exhausting looking online for jobs. I don't even want to talk about it right now. I am writing this blog post to prevent myself from looking at jobs right now.

Yeah, it sounds really whiny, but if you haven't been looking in a while I need to update you on the feeling you get. The sheer boredom combines with the endless possibilities and eventually leads to your ass hurting from sitting down for so long, or in my case my back because I don't have anywhere to sit in my room, so I'm lying on my bed which I spend most my day because I'm unemployed and don't have enough room in here for a goddamn chair and therefore may not be able to sleep tonight, that is if I ever get fucking tired because I barely got out of bed today.

I have a mild case of cabin fever. I usually keep it down by going to the movies, something I learned to do last year, but this year I don't really have money so I kind of feel guilty about going. This week there was nothing I really wanted to see so I didn't and now everything from my sleep schedule to my back is fucked. The sleep schedule thing is because I actually get up to go to the movie, if I don't have a reason to get up I don't until noon.

I'm really sick of this.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Some thoughts on Education

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So I'm reading up on a case of homeschooling. I think that the case is simple. The father fears that his daughter is not being properly socialized by her mother's homeschooling and the mother is trying to turn it into a case of religious discrimination.

I'm not a fan of homeschooling. I couldn't have imagined having to spend the day learning from my mother, especially now that I realize how much she doesn't know. I decided in high school that the point that parents start saying that "teens think they know everything" is really just when the teens realize that the parents know nothing.

There is no test for parents to homeschool. I can see parents who decide that they aren't going to teach algebra because they (the parent) are not good at it and don't like it. There are so many things that public and private education forces kids to look into, such as literature, drama, and history, which could be considered optional and I fear what a most adults would decide is enough. I know that their are some exams that the students have to take, more now than before, but I fear that someone might not be exposed to Romeo and Juliet because the parent couldn't understand Shakespearean or Animal Farm because the horse dies (sorry for the spoiler) and they thought it upset them (the parent, not the child).

The real concern I have is that when you hear about successful homeschooling the kids are already taking community college classes by the time they are sixteen. There is a flaw in the current system of public education is that they slow down the class for the worst students, who might be a slow learner or might be just stupid, then the smart kids get bored, and their grades suffer for it. I know that is how it works because it happened to me and to both of my brothers. Our antagonists in elementary school were not other kids, but the teachers themselves, who fought battles with our parents, trying to convince them that we were retarded troublemakers.

Once we got out of there we were awarded our proper status as "gifted", we acted out because we were bored and had incompetent teachers. I've been out of that place for ten years and I still hate it with an passion.

My point is that they don't want to hurt the feelings of the stupid kids by leaving them behind, and therefore they damage and slow the education the the smarter kids. Then they waste time with dumb activities and organization, I'm trying to compare the eight hour public school day to the three hour homeschooling day and failing.

But my elementary school said I would never be able to string three sentences together so I've proved them wrong.